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On not deciding what is impossible before it is even possible

“We begin to believe that these personal restrictions are, in fact, the fixed limitations of the world. We go on to live our lives, all the while wondering what we can change and how we can change it, and we calculate and re-calculate when we will be ready to do the things we want to do. And we dream. If only. If only. One day. Some day.

Debbie Millman

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Empty promises

Glasses on Newspaper

It is nearing the end of December. In a few hours, it will be Christmas and then 2012 will be all but over.

As we all know, endings usually lead to new beginnings, but for so many people, the end of the working year will just be followed by the beginning of the next working year (after the obligatory “breakaway” from it all).

For me, 2013 will be much more than that. I have a deadline. In just over two months, my work contract expires, and I have no intention of renewing it.

I don’t have a new job or career lined up. In fact, I intend to be free from work forever after February 2013.

I’ve been with the same company for six years now. Initially, the honeymoon was great. It was great for a really long time, actually. But, like all relationships coming to an end, we have both  (myself and my company) been in denial about the relationship’s waning status for quite some time now.  And, like so many relationships gone bad, we were both just sticking it out, despite mutual knowledge that it’s not working for either of us any more. It’s familiar, even though it’s horrible. It’s comfortable, in a stuck-in-a-groove sort of way…

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